Lost in Transition

There's really no easy way to talk about any of this.  I feel a need to at least let everyone know that I did have my check-up last August, and the Dr. didn't get enough sample on his pap swab to do anyone a bit of good, but I did get a bill for it. Ha!

I have another check-up in February, where I'll be sure to let Dr. B know that he needs to scrape extra hard to make sure we get what we need. (winky winky).  This is a bit tricky as it will be the first doctor's visit with Dr. B that my husband wasn't with me.

I miss him.

A lot.

Moving forward, and hating every single step. Thankfully I have three wonderful reasons to keep moving forward, at least until I like it a little bit.

Still grateful for what I know to be true.  Thankful for family and friends who continue to love me, warts and all.  Thankful for three little boys who pray for me every morning and night.  I am thankful.  Tired and weary, but thankful.

Much love,
Kami

My Coach.....

This is him.  The man I met and then married nearly 14 years ago.  He knew all of my secrets, and loved me anyway.  He kept my heart safe and my life lovely.  He gave me three beautiful boys who are the light of my world.  He has been my everything and will continue to be until I see him again.

Coach was called back to his Heavenly Father on October 8th.  Some say it was a heart attack, others think it was congestive heart failure, the results of the autopsy are still pending.  You would think with all the medical whatnot we've been hurdling this past year, that I would be more patient with the process; I'm not.  I would like to now why he's not here with me right now- at least the physical reason.

In my heart I know that it was his time.  What does that even mean?  I truly believe that we will never live shorter or longer than our appointed time on this Earth.  A loving Heavenly Father watches over each of us and it is in His hands that we rest.

I miss him.  Desperately.

I'll probably write more down the pike, but I wanted you all to know why it's been so quiet lately.  I'm a bit lost without my best friend.  I'm also very hopeful that peace will come.

~Kami